so sad but i must

bla bla bla.. i'm so confused now... why ?? because i don't know what i feel what i think n what would i do... damn !!

what i fell...

i fell falling in love but i broke... i fell happy but i sad... i fell lonely in noisy... arrghhh... n last.. i miss him... n i hate the reality that i miss him... what the hell is that ??

whati i think...

i think i'm in love... but i think i'll be broken heart soon... i think i'm happy but i wanna cry... i think i'm lonely... but i have many friends around me... i think i hate him... but WHY i miss him ??

what would i do...

i will try to never falling in love... i will try to smile... i will try to join with noisy... n i will always try to forget him... no more him again in my life (i hope so...)

God... can u help me now ?? i really need ur help... i feel so scare... i don't wanna feel lost someone again... so i hope u want make me to never feel loving him... because i know that he will never love me... he has found his true love... n i hope he will get that... i don't wanna be egoist for a many time...

so..

i will...

try to forget someone who ever i loved...

try to forget feeling that i'm in love with him...

try to be a good friend like usually i do for him...

so sad... but i must...

nb:

i'm using english.. because i don't wanna u understand what i mean sham....